I've been here...

Though I haven't posted in quite some time, I've been here.  I've been writing.

I feel like I'm walking a delicate balance right now.  Almost 8 years into grief, I know some things.  They feel like secrets that none of the veteran bereaved told me when I was fresh on this journey.  But now I see why.  There are hard, definite truths that are hard to swallow.  You don't want anybody to rush to those truths, or to know them too soon.  Because it's always too soon.

I've written several posts that I felt like I needed to sit on, wallow in, even.  I needed to make sure they were ready for other eyes to see them, knowing that some of those eyes will be tear stained from the early, darkest days.

So please know that I'm still here, praying for you, wherever you are in this journey.  You are not alone.